Hey everybody, wasn’t the last episode the saddest of the whole series?

I must say,  I had very different expectations for the “Enough about Eve”: the teasers and the sneak peeks were suggesting great schemes, playing it rough and tough, somewhere halfway between a ganster hold’em and a glittering hollywood romance, all under the ruling Chair duet. But everything was messed up like a perfect dream turning into a nightmare: the plots and the intrigues remain; the parts change, nobody knows what they’re in for anymore yet everyone keeps scheming and spying, like horses on a merry-go-round, again and again. You never know, by the time the roundabout stops you might just get back to your former position.

Wrong, being stubborn is like being dizzy, once you’re sick of it, everything falls apart and you’re the one looking ridiculous in your fight to win it all. And somehow, this is what “Enough about Eve” was about, girls who try too much to go ahead of themselves in some desperate hope to make amends for who they are.

I was glad to see a different side of Vanessa on this episode: if she embodies the bohemian -I eat organic and love riding a bike- cliché among the other upper-east-siders, compared to Mr and Mrs Abrams she’s almost nothing like this, just a girl trying to make her own way and to get some acknowledgement from her parents. Well isn’t that just like Serena? She didn”t have much left to lose in this episode and the determination she displays seems as strong as deep her yearning for parental esteem was. I agree, her deeds were more than foul and crude and her recording Blair’s declaration didn’t really make you want to become friends with her but if you look closely, you can tell that she’s acting exactly like Blair or Serena here, in the same gesture of despair to get some attention from the ones she seeks it for.

Serena is, according to me, in a different position, not only because she wasn’t involve in the same quest as were Blair and Vanessa (although for distinct purposes) but because her involvement with Carter took her further within herself than she ever did before. This is something I’ve always loved with Serena’s character, unlike Blair who wants to keep the status quo, Serena is always finding out new aspects of her personality. She discovers them through experiencing them whereas Blair, for example, is struggling not to accept what she always suspected to be part of her. I truly felt, watching Serena made a fool of herself at poker, being lied to by Nate and finally abandoned by Carter, that suddenly her veil upon reality collapsed. And what moved me the most when she burst in tears was not to see her going through a heartbreak, but to see her understand at last what her fuss had always been about. We, on the opposite, have known for a long time how Serena is likely to bear others’ burden and solve it as her own, how good hearted and devoted she can be.

She didn”t, hence the chocked back tears. She made Carter leave, no one else.

Now that the truth has dawned upon her, she can come and sit along in the Café with Blair and Vanessa who already knew and accepted their responsibility for their own “misery”.

Those three characters give the episode an extraordinary bitter atmosphere with one of the saddest ending I’ve seen in a Gossip Girl episode. As girls, they wanted it all, still naive, they thought they could make it happen. But how do you call a girl whose hopes and desires are compromised not just by parents or reality, but by her own personality?

They say maturity and adulthood mean to learn to let go, to know who you are and try to make the most out of it.

If that’s true, I guess you could say our three female characters have just become adults. And their indulgence towards each other, their need for forgiveness, their last begging, add to it the bittersweet beauty of womanhood.

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